I dunno, but everyday ever since the 21st my days aren't complete anymore. Feels like there's something wrong and missing. Maybe it's because I'm missing JS practices or so. Still, it's freakishly unusual for me to feel this. Poahaha. I'm a cold-hearted dude that's why it's weird. So anyway, I'm doing some blog hopping right now, and I envied people who post randomly and yet their blogs are very fun to read. Unlike mine. Useless, full of rants and selfish wishes. Stupid girl. I kinda miss my old blogpage which is hidden to the rest of the world except her. I really placed my heart in posting all the stuff written there. But sadly saying, I shut it down to kill issues and busybodies from reading more. I don't know where or when time stopped for me. When things felt wrong. The 21st is not the first time, but it's the latest. I miss it. Please bring back old time. Hahaha. I realized last Tuesday. What stays before and during prom stays. There won't be anything after. Sad yet true. I have no progress in my social life. Stupid anti-social girl. Haha. I hope I won't be like this anymore. It's like I'm tied to a post and am not allowed to leave or meet anybody aside from those people around me. People whom I am sick and tired of looking at. No offense dear. It's not that I don't want to be with you guys, it's just I want something new. I'm a freak who want to explore. So I guess that's just normal. Oright. So what's up with my title anyway? o.O I typed in something random again. Hahaha. Loser. Another realization. Reason why I like something or someone new. Hmn. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm losing everything and everyone I love. I mean people who were there for me before are still here right now but not like the usual. I mean they found someone NEW to be with. I admit, I am a very selfish dude. And I am jealous whenever something like that happened. I feel sad because of my own idiocy. I feel like a sore loser who doesn't know anything about this damned world. A freak who doesn't do anything besides procrastinating. Oh well. That's how unfair life can be.